The Book has been kept on hold because I don’t want to promulgate anything erroneous, I can share all the weird stories with you in person, if you want but it has to stay between us
I’m too sick, I had Crocin to deal with extremely high fever, I’m not well today because of my wisdom tooth, its not impacted but the pain gives me fever, it’s not easy to bear something like this in fibromyalgia where the tooth and all of its cusps are ripping off your swollen gums. My pressure is again low so I somehow wrote this, it almost feels like I won’t make it, you know I’m already in a critical condition, I’m getting convulsions too as usual. Kindly ignore all errors.
Here's a short recap of what happened 3 days ago:
Long ago… when I was going through a movie plot, I came across several things which reminded me of my own situation, I also came across several dates or numbers (related to the production, shoot schedule & launch) which were completely aligned with all the significant dates of my story, I also thought one of the main characters was quite relatable and eventually after a few months I found myself repeating the title of the movie (because I ended up in the same position, it was already similar to my own story and I can’t share how specific it was, it wasn’t a common catchphrase or anything) I was once on Facebook and I had just received a “throwback” from 2012, I was reminiscing those days and I worded out, “When I was 17…” simultaneously, as I verbalised that I read a caption in my feed (which was already preloaded) that caption also said, “When I was 17” Anyway, the movie is just one example, I’ve had such instances before and although this isn’t the only theory I’ve established so far, I’m gonna share something connected to that but before I proceed… I’ll narrate a quick roundup of my recent & most latest coincidences: I unfollowed some celeb on insta because I thought my tweets were too harrowing, I didn’t want them to reach my twitter account or get acquainted with all of that cuz I was viewing their stories & even liking some of the posts, I don’t like following celebs anyway. I didn’t want to depress people who have nothing to do with my story, well it’s not entirely like that cuz I’ve been having coincidences related to them since they were launched and I was only 16… in real life not on internet, I always wondered why, I also realised we were a lot in sync, I came across her twice in real life and I had once gone to some place to book tiles for my room in 2011-12, when we were making changes to our new home and I saw her name in one of the folders which had the Client details… it can’t be her, I’m pretty sure but I can’t be 100% certain, it might be her cuz they dealt in designer imported tiles, next, I was at some other place where I was discussing something (I was also one of the patrons) and I again saw her name on the screen as another client and yeah she frequented this place, I realised that after a year or so… I again thought it was someone else but it was indeed her. When I followed her on insta I realised she was a lot in sync, after I unfollowed, I received a “sign” which was directing me towards her, it was her birthdate and it reminded me of exactly how she writes it, I ignored it because I didn’t want to fall prey to any of their games again and when I say “they” I mean Gods or whoever these entities are, I then came across a reel on Facebook which had her and I saw it, it was on auto mode so it started playing by default (they were all lined up) which means the “ignoring part” didn’t help… there was a background song in that reel which was eventually connected to Harsh Rajput or the guy whom I call 501, I had associated it with him long along and that song always reminded me of him, it was Falak Tak from Tashan, it was already there in my iPod shuffle when I was a kid, it came with a few songs by default, I then transferred it to my music library and I associated it with him when I was 18 (after I met him) he crossed my mind and I was listening to that song and ever since then that song reminded me of him. After this “they” had no other source to send me such signs or messages cuz I’d already unfollowed her and like I said she was very much in sync with me… so they picked my cousin, she was the only one I was following as a “person”, rest are all brands and home decor pages, her stories started being in sync, whatever I would think she would post it, and it’s not even like I would share anything with her, that was just to grab my attention, then she eventually shared a tweet by someone named Harsh (which again reminded me of Harsh Rajput aka 501) I sometimes feel it’s his Illuminati who is behind all this, it’s like a curse or maybe he himself is Illuminati…
Anyway, there’s one more thing which can explain why my cousin or that actress were in sync (that is if there’s no foul play involved) but I can’t share it here, it’s confidential, it was supposed to be in my book… it explains all those coincidences which I’ve had with him. So coming to another celebrity since they were the only people in my life, I have no friends so I would usually follow brands and then some female celebs for hair & makeup/fashion, but I unfollowed whoever I was following because of like I said my depressing, sad tweets and also Harsh because he thinks life’s all about being a “celebrity” well I’m talking about actual celebrities here 🙄 … and social media is a fun place where we see them as friends not fans, I have never been into human worship so I don’t find it relatable (as in the whole concept of fans and adulation) but you do admire some of them… 🤷🏻♀️ I was recently feeling extremely depressed due to the same old never ending problems, my health and mainly my “appearance” there was something which was bothering me in particular and I was ready to kilo myself because of that but then I was suggested some actress’s insta account (you get new suggestions when you don’t have friends or your contacts synced) I stumbled across one of her pics where she had shared a bare face without any makeup on and I realised everyone looks like that, we are all similar, she has been given a title for that particular feature and it’s a good one, they are considered the best in the world, it helped me but other things made me suicidal… coming back to the crux, this has happened before as well whenever I’ve felt conscious about something I’ve come across such posts which have depicted the same things, the exact same issues like at times I’ve felt bad about getting breakouts so the next very moment I was shown someone who had tons of them, then I was worried about my skin and I saw someone who was much more worse, they has always been very specific which is a bit shocking… and magical both. But I can’t trust whoever did that or created such circumstances which for example, led me to her post or propelled her to share something in a timely manner because maybe they (that entity) is just trying to gain my trust. Many people prefer marching to their own beat, on the contrary, realistically speaking and in a slightly varied context, Harsh Rajput’s diabolical behaviour which perpetually reminds me of a Raven haired Red Devil dancing to the beat of his own drum 👹 makes me forebode my future even more now, it makes me all the more cynical, it could be a full proof conspiracy… where they are just trying to gain my trust because if the signs or coincidences would’ve been real, then where is Harsh Rajput? I’ve seen them working in other cases or other areas of my life but in his scenario, they never make any sense… why is Harsh Rajput so immune or impervious to everything? Where is he? Is he here? With me? Everyone is busy in their own life, with someone they love, my parents are growing old too, I’m not even capable of taking care of myself, I have no source of livelihood, my relatives are not like your’s, I have no friends and even my sibling is not like that… my mother clearly says he will never be there for you, I want him to move away, she has always created a rift between us. I’ve always had separation anxiety, but I was abandoned by everyone ever since I was a kid, I had to part ways with everybody and I cry everytime I see my grandparents or recall my childhood days, I would get abused even back then, that too unimaginably but those days were still better compared to all the heartbreak and throes that I’m going through as of now… and by now I mean since the past 7 years This is the inevitable cycle of life, you have to eventually bid a farewell to all those you’ve grown up with and then you end up having new people and a new family, in my case, I have no one to obsolete them or anything to look forward to…
I hardly had 2 basic coincidences regarding something else and things worked in my favour, it was a reassuring sign, then in another scenario I had just one and even over there it was auspicious (my autocorrect changed it to “suspicious” well it gets me, hmm… 🤔 🤨 I’m suspicious about everything now) Yet in Harsh’s case, years and years of coincidences, I’ve had more than 2000+ related to him nothing helped. Gods don’t have any credibility because of him. This is exactly why I feel he is the ultimate Devil, he is Lucifer/Illuminati/Jadaal/Iblis from now on, I won’t be calling him 501 but Iblis you’ve earned a new title, next time our Driver (he freelances for us) Hanif bhai would go there with the gifts, he’ll be seen wearing a Black Cape… “Harsh baba sorry Iblis ke liye bhett aayi hai” there will be in fact a long queue behind him, line lagi hui rahengi behind him which will have all kinds of celebrities, all that illustrious Hollywood crowd to worship him, they’ll be like, “Yoohoo Mr. Iblis I have a few requests to make… I want to my next album to be a superhit, I want 5 tickets booked to Ibiza latest by morning, I also want to be in next year’s MET not on the red carpet but in the gallery… I want to be one of the priciest artworks to be exhibited over there, I also want to have all my fav stuff including peanut butter-banana smoothie that is… without gaining a single ounce of weight, I love you Iblis Xx that’s it for now” He always wanted people to worship him, so there. Where is he? Is he present in my life? In my house? People stay with the one they love/their SO and soulmate, I feel horrible when I see other people flaunting all that on social media, no one’s alone like me… no one’s a lip virgin till this age, everyone’s in fact even married by now. So where’s he? Inspite of what I wrote in the beginning of this paragraph, inspite of all those coincidences and innumerable signs? He is insensitive and appallingly cruel & for me he is dead.
I have nothing to do with even actual celebs, a lot of people say they are into cult worship and after so many mysterious occurrences in my life, I don’t want to associate with them in any manner, they are scary…
Also, after sharing this, I’ll give up, I’m tired of being sick everyday it’s been like this since 7 years, it has already consumed my entire youth, I am done… I am not capable of doing anything I’m tired of a sedentary life, and even in that I’m constantly in emotional and physical pain, I’m constantly dealing with convulsions and all which started after 5th March 2020 (after his parents were busy banging his “Celebrity” drum 🥁 and he was busy dancing and doing his tandav 👹) Good I didn’t go there, I’ve never been to his house, I’ve always been formal and I would never even want to go there cuz who knows, he might pluck a hair or two and then tie it to some voodoo doll and do some Illuminati tochka :/ This reminds me of a meme “Whoever has my voodoo doll can you give it a little massage please?” haha. Coming to the synchronicity… I feel the “Loom of Fate” is indeed real, so far it has been considered a mere cultural motif but they have used it in multiple film and movie adaptations, no one has ever delved deeper into that subject though, if we ponder upon what I’d written about that super relatable Movie or those two actresses (in the very beginning of my article)... like I said, I’ve had similar instances where I’ve seen my story being finely blended into another one's tale. I think each of our fates have been prewritten or premeditated, our threads are all weaved together with a particular set of people and that intricacy forms all the patterns which we see through number sequences, planetary alignment, astrological signs and such “dramatically" bizarre coincidences… I had learnt something long ago, you are going to find fragments of your story weaved together into other people’s fate… so whenever I see a connection or some sort of relatability, I pull up that string... to see where it leads, you can even see the future sometimes but actual psychics don’t work that way, it’s their brain which helps them sense things or have premonitions and I was explaining “how” all that is possible scientifically in my book. This is another method, to explain it better, it’s like you are in a veritable misty forest, you can’t necessarily see your way out but you’ll find a string tied to one of the trees, you just have to pull it and follow the trail… I don’t know if it’ll lead you to your destiny or doom but you will realise where it's heading and at times even get a glimpse of the future ie. through other people's fates where you will find fragments of your own like I said, because it's all connected, you may get to peek into your page in the book of life or see a pattern to figure out how it has been designed, our fate has already been written and we are playing out a story. Speaking of the two actresses (I was talking about them in the beginning of my article) I noticed some synchronicity with the latter as well, I saw a few buildings in the background behind her favourite cafe and I realised she was in New York, I had just created an ID with “York” in the name since all other usernames were taken, I decided to add York cuz I had one of DW’s leather straps somewhere in the back of my mind, the brown or black one was called York, I always thought it looked very fancy cuz I love New York so I added that to make the username more “unique” and I had created this for that Insta ID… never thought I would be including it in my article:
This doesn't mean whatever he is doing is right or justifiable, you cannot be that wayward, you can't ruin someone's life and take away all of their youth & hope and then try to get away with it just to spite God or his "decisions"... no one has ever seen anything like this before, in fact its easier for girls, no one has ever seen anyone not giving a chance to their soulmate, it was my bad luck that I was made for you.
It was just supposed to be a fun place… as per my story and whatever I had concluded, as in the core reason behind those coincidences and all the weird uncanny stuff (related to Harsh Rajput aka Iblis) giving those gifts was my last wish and somehow it was connected to the whole story or the entire narration; I can share everything as long as you promise to never divulge it, I can also explain why I heard his father’s name twice or why I was inadvertently carrying the Cupid twice right before I saw him or why I saw that TV uncle twice right there in the same position at the same signal and why both the days were Fridays and so on… I can even explain all the coincidences which I’ve had with that Actress, they again revolve around seeing her exactly twice and then seeing her name somewhere or the other as a client like me again, twice. I know the reason and it’s important for others to know it as well but I’m not in the state to finish my book. And as long as the gifts are concerned, apart from being my last wish… and the ultimate weapon against the devil or being a huge victory for God or whoever, they are also connected to the reason which I can’t share in my post - the one related to those coincidences revolving around her and Harsh/Iblis umm… speaking of that, to hell with those gifts. I did an online reading and I saw where the Gods went wrong and I don’t have to be a Hero, I don’t have to be that altruistic, I did not come into this world to be some sort of a saint c’mon… I was born to live and enjoy, I’m not someone who will ditch the entire world just to follow the calling of her soul and then focus on a “higher purpose” I’m not your warrior or a celibate Nun… I never chose this life, let whatever happens happen, I can give some other gifts but I won’t give those… cuz they bind everything together and they were metaphorically connected to the climax/ending of my book. They were the Second set of gifts, Second or 2nd means Two, Twice like 2nd Oct when we first met and 2nd April when we met for the second time and the story involves a lot of other people as you must’ve read, the secret does not include those gifts but something else, they are nonethelesss connected. Sorry to whoever’s a part of this entire... story or if you've been weaved together with my yarn, in the veritable "loom of fate", the whole narrative (of my book) is very interesting, I can share it if you want but the gifts won’t go to his house ever, like I said come what may, let whatever happens, happen. Plot twist! This link has 2019 gifts and their story
Zara Sauleh
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