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Sui-cde this was left:
I am shivering too much cried the whole day n night more than how much I’ve cried in the past 10 years I have high fever n pain in every nerve I can’t breathe heartbeats n heart muscles nerves are going crazy I’m feeling dizzy also my bp has fallen I haven’t eaten anything since yesterday morning either.
PLEASE go through our signs from at least 23rd May 2023 with Screenshots and markings. I was exactly on the 23rd Chapterwhich was the final one but I couldn’t finish it, DUE TO WHAT HAPPENED ON 23rd May and Aditya who died on the 22ndended up being in Chapter 22 again it wasn’t planned by me.
SECONDLY my death won’t make it to the newspapers cuz I’m not famous so I’m telling my mother it was because of Harsh Jayesh Rajput, my father or brother isn’t here so I still have time to die before they come. I’m telling her as a witness and you all are witnesses too. I could’ve written a police complaint with my medical reports showing how I have been tortured for 10 years but I have to die now I’ll share why 3 reasons:
I STILL RECEIVE MINE AND HIS MARRIAGE SIGNS which I’ve been getting since 2016 and when I was thinking about that this came up Contd. Reading after this. And yeah those FOOLISH PPL will say I'm writing this or it's fabricated although they won't even know that word, these images have watermarks and user-ids which you can see clearly, they are not mine. I don't even have friends to have so many followers like these ppl (the IDs) not those stupid tv wannabes how dumb? And for the friends part I don't give free benefits nowadays it's mostly that. I STILL RECEIVE MINE AND HIS MARRIAGE SIGNS which I’ve been getting since 2016 and when I was thinking about that this came up Contd. Reading after this.
Go through the signs and markings they will prove even my PREVIOUS post that the Devil or Satan is real Harsh, inspite of our marriage signs which have been repeatedly coming since 2016 cuz he was my soulmate he had come first and sent kiss emojis etc. You’ll find it in my old laptop they were very special to me I have shared our signs too multiple number of times they were all very blatant and obvious. I was getting abused and thrashed/tortured at home even in this critical condition and I had no one in this world other than him and YET inspite of our signs since the past 10 years he did this, I waited for him I did everything to even move on but they wanted call girls/superficial relationships and it’s not easy to find ur match he was my soulmate so it was supposed to be him anyway.
He HELPED the devil who eventually KILLED ADITYA SINGH RAJPUT, I haven’t stalked him since 2016 Feb I wasn’t ready to do that and I had an inherent fear since I’d read a foreigner writing about rings so I too was afraid of seeing a ring on his hand, since I was not ready to stalk Harsh the devil killed Aditya cuz he knew i wasn’t aware he was his friend and I wud see the funeral video and The ring was the first thing I saw and the devil knew PRINCESS Diana was afraid of car accidents and he made sure she would die in one after hitting the 13th pillar his card even in the tarot deck is 13 the devil does this it’s all negativity and Harsh aided him he was my soulmate they say those who keep showing up in signs end up with you and I’ve been getting his signs since 2016 more than 700 ones I am endi-ng my life now my father and brother are not at home so it’s the right time.
Harsh himself BEHAVES LIKE THAT and then gas lights and I’m sure he says if he would’ve been my soulmate he would’ve been here, HE HIMSELF acts like that because he’s a man and in this country they need to be put on a leash considering how far they’ve gone this is all misogyny.
Second reason I’ve explained why I’m so angry now so much that I’ll sl-tt my left wrist in the most haywire manner left right everywhere every nerve : I HAD SAID that she is undeservingly there in my place and he was “rightfully” mine (if you have enough guts you’ll see the signs and markings 23rd May onwards there are posts on FB everywhere, how cheap I’m sure they are sitting and assuming otherwise I have more in my phone) I had just said that SHE TOOK WHAT WAS RIGHTFULLY MINE and the next day, even though I’d not mentioned it anywhere back then it was in my head some reading online said this “The Devil will not only take away what is rightfully their’s but also everything else every forthcoming fortune” in an online reading… I couldn’t finish the last line yesterday hence there’s more and he not only snatched Harsh who was rightfully MINE I had said the same words in my head but also whatever was to come which included my life’s first red lehenga in the past 10 years HE GOT ME BED RIDDEN at 21 itself other girls were bedded I was bed ridden i lost 7 years from there I’m 28 now that shameless woman who’s used to everything will ask if I never had one OBVIOUSLY I lost all my life because of him I missed out on all those years it was snatched away from me on our marriage number which I still see IN PAIRS even now he took away all that. There’s more after this line - Even now the universe believes it’s us, when Preet’s brother in law topic came up again IT AGAIN TOOK MY NAME, just like before even now… cuz she was “NEVER” MEANT TO BE. Next, I had collected everything i needed for my room renovation cuz of rains and the wallpaper hassle but HE TOOK AWAY that also and there was some item I wanted madly from Hyderabad store John Cena happened to come there so my father has gone with my brother they’re not here and he was getting it but I was crying the whole day and today I AM DY-ING he took away all my most cherished items including something I’d collected money for since 2016 again and all other cherished things i couldn’t even wear or use I was NEVER ABLE TO DRESS UP AGAIN because instead of being here he was FKING HER THERE he took away Harsh Jayesh Rajput too. My pressure is falling I can’t type anymore
This is the last and final reason… the ring means all these 10 years like someone said he was NOT actually impotent and that he had been conveniently after asking my bb pin Instagram or if I was single (I have screenshots so you better shut up I have them in my laptop i can’t access it or I’ll faint go through if you HAVE GUTS you can call on 7738020029 ask my mother for it it’s right there) instead of our marriage signs since 2016 and those kids emojis which he sent me first he ruined me look This was me she’ll lie about that also that’s my OWN HOUSE BEHIND you insecure jealous ugl-y psycho, I have VIDEOS too on my old insta which i don’t use anymore… there’s more below
It simply means inspite of being like that and having so many marriage signs with him or even other love related soulmate signs and so much love I deserved to die a virgin? A lip virgin too? I was Never kissed. Inspite of being sophisticated or smart I did everything to become more ideal for him I can’t type how I don’t want her to imitate me, there were so many characteristics that I changed which are ingrained in all girls have at 20-21 itself yet I was getting abused and thrashed at home in this critical state and I was left to die and he who was not actually impotent was making love to others and I am dy-ing a virgin? It’s BEYOND unfair it is love and they got it no matter how much you’ll twist it. He was the MOST INSENSITIVE AND CRUEL TOWARDS MEand an easy lay for them. The ring PROVES that all these years nothing was good about me and his blocking without giving me a fair chance was just rejection, he was deliberately ignoring the signs and links too it proved that he can make love to everyone but not me as if I was the worst.
Hence I have already starved myself since yesterday morning n I’m using the cuttr and the meds both to have an over-dse and die. I had that hunch too, in my left wrist, it was already radiating that pain since two days right there at the nerve. I had to share the reasons she’s still lying in bed with him in my place and I can’t live with that. How cheap? He was MINE I wasn’t the only one who said he was rightfully mine and he was snatched away.
I’ll meet him now straight in heaven where he won’t be possessed by that devil. ASK URSELF why he started getting so erratic and odd? In 2015 itself anything which explains that sudden silence OCD and the unusual blocking in 2015… other than devil worship which celebs commonly do or being possessed? Cuz I had not even told him “no” for anything, he had no reason he knew I was into him and he liked me back too in fact he had first sent those kiss emojis so why would someone suddenly do that? And that too even when things went EXTREME his strange behaviour and animosity continued he was silent till the end. Tom Cruise was also like that due to cults. ONE MORE PROOF BELOW
In heaven I’ll meet him now I’ll go there and wait for him there for years and years I’ve waited for him now I’ll wait more and then I won’t even have to cry like I was crying yesterday and tell him whatever happened… he won’t even believe it cuz he’s so possessed I’m sure he doesn’t know what he’s doing. Something else also said he doesn’t know the difference between RIGHT AND WRONG because he is indeed possessed. There was a picture of him which had showed up long back in 2015, he was standing in partial darkness and half light and smirking straight into the camera while making an evil face and he was literally pushing his head inside the lens wth those weird eyes, as if he was actually taken over by some spirit. He was smirking so slyly that it was intimidating. I thought it was a joke but whenever I remember that now I realise it was too scary that too for someone of his age, it wasn’t normal. He is playing some “character” it seems in real life of an angry young man and he’s in DELUSION, he doesn’t realise that real life is more autonomous and it shouldn’t be steered by such made up “cardboard characters” who are this rough and bad JUST when I was thinking he was playing that Angry young man stereotype the quotes said this there’s more below
His madness killed Aditya Singh Rajput and Me, his own soulmate and someone who was destined to be his wife there’s one more sign which I’ll share…
I will share this again… I STILL RECEIVE MINE AND HIS MARRIAGE SIGNS which I’ve been getting since 2016 and when I was thinking about that this came up - Zara Sauleh Contd.
I am dy-ing I’ve already had a dream/premonition sort of take it as that… i saw the police reading this and I’m not sure they won’t be able to do anything much cuz i never lodged his complaint at the station with my reports, but they will read this, I couldn’t do like my room and all I’m crying rn and she’s making fun of me I know, THATS WHY HARSH NEVER CALLED HE NEVER LEFT HER he was never ashamed of what he did he never budged so now it’s the end after it’s confirmed that the ring meant THAT. Or else I’d convinced myself otherwise cuz I had a lot to lose LAUGH CALL ME BECHARI OR “POOR” I’ll still be better looking than you, because that’s just sympathy compassion means you would’ve HELPED ME instead of calling me “poor girl etc” no need to look down upon my condition, no one even asked me if I was okay no one bothered to lend a hand or help so no one has any right to read this as a voyeur out of sadism. To compare their lives OUT OF GLOATING consider how lucky they are and how ridiculous I was. I was pretty and smart both more than you and STOP MOCKING only ugly women will do that THIS CAME up when I was committing Sui-de “Rare girls like you don’t happen often” and when I kept saying I MISSED OUT on him I missed out I couldn’t imagine that I loved him so much that i missed out I can’t actually live with that regret that too I DID NOTHING he was going on hating like I said after showing interest all of a sudden there was nothing I could do I kept asking and he was behaving so strangely you’ve read all that, he was not ready to even say what was wrong he was blocking and he was insensitive till the very end. When I was saying I missed out on him which is unimaginable cuz i wanted him the most only him he was my soulmate I loved all these 10 years IT SAID “You lost me i didn’t lose you and you’ll look for me in every girl but you’ll never find me again.”
They say when a person dies his memories die with him including his “first kiss” I NEVER HAD THAT EITHER, or that other dream of making my room all those things or of dressing up after 10 years again, couldn’t finish that book now LINK TWITTER/Book there's more in the same thread https://x.com/dutchesstruffle/status/1698437497544397053?s=46 it’s
It is all over either you’ll find my covers and everything I’d made so far all only own 87000 words it had MINE and his LOVE STORY OUR SIGNS so I can’t write it now that ring makes it redundant.
Bye now it’s just the cuttr and those meds i have to end this l-ife after that ring confirmation I can’t live
- Zara Sauleh
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