I’ve written this somehow before losing my eyesight completely after years of complaining.
btw I was NOT fighting with him I was fighting FOR him.
The MOST SCARIEST EXPERIENCE EVER… pls read:
I was born with a perfect 20/20 vision but within one year of meeting him Harsh Jayesh Rajput I got almost bed ridden with fibromyalgia and other neurological disorders at merely 21 years of age due to his RIGIDY and cruel behaviour I also got almost blind thanks to excessive crying swipe
I was again abused several times at home and thrashed just like my childhood days even during this fibromyalgia now where the pain was unbearable my heart had grown weak too due to him (they say heartbreaks can actually break the tendons of ur heart) swipe
I was critical now even after all these 8-10 years during Cov he DIDNOT budge and now the worst happened after his FRIEND ADITYA SINGH RAJPUT DIED and he was showing off that manhoos RING!!!!!!!!! ‼️‼️swipe
I was complaining about my eyes since 3 years it wasn’t just the deteriorating vision every night due to lack of sleep and crying where that woman would sleep and get loved by him she wud literally have Sx with him I, a forever virgin wud cry myself to death. Due to that my eye ball wud swell up at night literally the eyeball and I wud wake up wth swipe
A swollen numb lifeless eye which wud nit even open the eyelids wud get PARALYSED there’s no one to help I tried Journalling again and I still kept crying I had to finish the book also but I CANT DO ANYTHING THAT I WANT today swipe
Instead of a paralysed eye I woke up (after an entire night of crying and Journalling and my book and his PAIN N TORTURE) I slept at 10 am in the morning and woke up with an eye which was gushing out all the water it was overflowing as if it was leaking out all the moisture it had and then my eye became numb entirely and I couldn’t see even now it’s sticky and dry and stuff I’m scared swipe
I don’t feel like waking up I feel like dy-ing cuz what’s the point if I won’t be able to see or do my book swipe
ALL because of that lane woman whom he invariably chose and whom he was desperate to FK his friend died I’m dying a cruel death, she will say it’s all about my virginity NO it’s not just that he’s MAKING LOVE TO HER unnecessarily even when I HAD RECEIVED MARRIAGE signs with him since 2016 swipe
and I needed him the most and I had no one to even take me to a doctor. He left me to die after ruining my life. Swipe
he’s shameless! All because he has light eyes! I never liked his eye shape now I’ll tell u the truth and I’ve met many boys with light eyes go see their SS too in my old laptop they WERE ALL NORMAL you wanted relationships like me you were interested and unfortunately you were the only one seeking that moreover I loved u I always liked so? Who’s this new dame swipe
All for his CELEB OCD I’m blind today with one eye and there’s no one to rush me to the hospital I can’t write that book anymore I had to do the typesetting and layout designing/then website everything on my own as usual. Swipe
You don’t get good talented ppl to hire I was making my own covers I’ll KIL-L myself if i won’t get to do it and its happening HIS NEEYAT is like Aneri’s his own EVIL EYES and ILL WILL took my eyes. GO see his car in the funeral video celebrity my foot! Had to write that I loved him inspite of the small untidy house I’d seen in 2015 and his financial status or Navsari background but now I REGRET it swipe
cuz he’s cruelly continuing with that “celeb OCD” which he got all of a sudden that year and he never broke it he just started acting absurd (with contradictory actions) block unblock talk block for no reason at all and no direct contact either one had to be using a fake acc, someone else also remarked if “he’s SANE minded”
his OCD ruined me and killed me… I lost 10 years of my life and died I’m this abusive household with torture and these plethora of illnesses limb by limb like I said and every eye I lost my eyes too HE MADE ME CRY AND WRITE THAT MUCH. For that woman who’s helping him imitate Bollywood celebs who got married all this is “dramatic?” Swipe
I wanted to marry too and I had marriage signs with him she WAS NEVER supposed to be there! You’ve seen how our families also connect to through every post I’ve shared on Facebook. Zara Sauleh and Twitter: @DutchessTruffle and Instagram too (can’t use tags there due to fanclubs) or Tumblr: @thesecretattic where I have my backup. Pls I need to die now. Punish him. As much as I love him I hate saying this but he needs to be behind the bars. They are mad and immature they don’t even see how they are DAMAGING someone! Swipe
Tit for tat isn’t called for when I’m crying not fighting here and he just wants excuses to FK others due to that OCD, my eye is paining I can’t write or see with that he’s crazy, he doesn’t even see that he’s making me write all this by keeping his MOUTH shut like fking constipated patient since 10 years I was NOT fighting with him I was fighting FOR him.
This is the last thing I’d written in my book in one of the prose chapters (which wasn’t connected to the side plot) I have shared the synopsis in the previous post:
Even if you are mad at someone for betraying you or giving your fair share of love to somebody else, let’s say if you are stuck in a similar situation and you are getting really apprehensive… then this is where someone you “don’t want” turns into someone you ‘need.’
It just means you crave for their presence more than ever now, you want them to be there to comfort you, to wipe your tears, to reassure with whatever they can and whether it’s a lie or not you know once you’ll hear it from them you’ll take their word for it and you’ll believe them instantly because that is what you want, you know you want to, if they’ll say, “it wasn’t anything like that” or “No. I wasn’t interested in her” then you won’t ask any further, you wouldn’t want to lose the present moment as well, especially when you don’t even have any memories together, apart from all those whom’ve you seen vicariously while living your life at the edge, where you couldn’t do anything beyond your best, you have no memorable moments of your own, anything that you could reminisce… anything significant enough to replay during the last 7 seconds of your life, the present is all you have and you’ll definitely not want to miss out on that as well. You just want them to be there for you, to (deservingly) choose you OVER them this time, to calm your nerves and put your disturbed mind to sleep by taking you in their arms and asking you to rest your head on their chest so that you could hear the comforting sound of their heavy heartbeats sighs you’ll definitely feel like falling asleep to that and dreaming of better days to come, hoping everything will be okay and your life has finally begun…
If he would have returned even now after all these years, which is almost a decade, instead of holding him responsible for whatever the mess he has created, I would’ve still spoken to him normally and acted like nothing ever happened, I wouldn’t have made him conscious about anything, in fact I would’ve given him those gifts that is… if he wanted them or the book with all due respect.
By Zara Sauleh
Another sign.
Wont die without saying those women are so fking insecure and JEALOUS that they'll covet my work those phrases/synopsis that I shared and fill his ears too cuz they know HOW PETTY he is, "look what she did now fk me" that's her attitude. Bloo-dy Whre! One more sign here... btw I was NOT fighting with him I was fighting FOR him.
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