Social

They say, “The longest distance in the entire world is between the Past & the Present.” At times I don’t even feel like my story deserves to be heard… like I said I had just turned 20 on the 29th of March & a few days later on 2nd April I met him for the 2nd time (soon after which my entire world turned upside down) we had first met on the 2nd of October (www.lilacnights.com/post/stupid-cupid) I still remember prancing the streets of Colaba early in the morning at 8:30 am… we had gone there after my Birthday (me, my brother & my childhood friend) we had some breakfast at Starbucks and then we were whiling away our time at the sea face… I miss the morning sun, I have been avoiding sunlight and I’ve started finding my solace or comfort in darkness ever since I got detected with all those neurological issues/disorders and fibromyalgia, as a fibro patient you can’t bear loud sounds or too much light, it’s mainly a chronic pain syndrome where you get excruciating pain - all kinds of it such as burning, itching, peeling, stabbing, sharp, throbbing, aching, stinging (however my illness didn’t stop anyone from thrashing or beating me up, or abusing me with several expletives, in a high pitched tone) I have become extremely conscious about my looks, so much so that I even avoid standing in the window or gallery because I don’t want to see how ugly I am in broad daylight and no one talks to me anyway so associating with people makes me super nervous & resentful, I’ve become completely agoraphobic. I still remember our day at Colaba, most of the stores (all the trinket stops, roadside stalls and the ones selling those beautiful heirloom carpets) were still shut, we were busy walking down those empty streets, the shining golden sun rays felt like a warm hug, we headed for some coffee and snacks and then went to the sea face, I miss those days when I was completely care free and insouciant… My friends were my whole world but they’ve always been extremely fake (and hurtful) in fact they have been nothing but a curse to me, they were like termites who did everything possible to destabilise and ruin the main foundation on which I was building my future, my brother was my only friend but even he changed. Oh by the way, I also remember the ultimate sundowner Colaba Social - with no actual sunset in sight, it was the first ever Social we had in Mumbai and it will forever be my most fav Social of all times… even though it doesn’t have a Skater Park or a “Penthouse Party” theme like Khar Social or that Tea Party appeal of the Fun Republic branch, it doesn’t have that Modern “Industrial” look like that of Lower Parel’s nor does it have an alfresco dining to boast of like the Versova one, so what was Colaba’s theme anyway? Well it was just a typical Hole in the wall kind of a bar, we would sneak in somehow because we were underage and it was so cramped up and overcrowded that half of us would either share the same table or sit on one of them. But trust me, it was extremely boisterous… and grungy I guess that was their unspecified “theme”, I just miss the whole vibe. In the spirit of those good ol’ days & Colaba Social I will be sharing these two Reggae R&B songs, I love the music, although the lyrics are extremely cringy and annoying but like I said the music is great… Rihanna Rude Boy & Bombay Rockers Sexy Mama - particularly their Radio Edit

Love,

Czar 𝒵ℒ.