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Writer's pictureZara Sauleh

Last Love Letter

She’ll be like - u dont have to “write all this” who are u even say that? As if what I’d written earlier was about him it was ABOUT U stop filling his ears.. have some shame. Stop telling him I’m bad mouthing him.


I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO SHARE ALL THIS ALL MY FEELINGS READ


Last post for him even if  that gay thing would’ve been true I would’ve given him a kiss on his forehead and asked him to stop this idk for his own sake I’m not being condescending in fact I’m Modern here others act conservatively just because I’m not sleeping with creeps or putting pics for them online I’m what? A nun? Ppl don’t give a chance they think it’s all burkha here? Just because someone’s not posting anything? Or they are trying too hard to show themselves as that? By coming here and pulling us down? Next you’ll find them in a Mohawk…


Read, I’m dy-ing I just wanted to be with him in these lady moments I wish I cud go back in time 🕰️ my head n chest kya les muscles are

jrkn-g a lot. I love you 🥰 I’ve always loved, cared n respected you but there’s NO HOPE at all it’s all very insensitive he/you never even said we’ll be together in old age or after 60 nooo there’s no hope for this entire remaining life!


Its been 10 years already all my life is over come n see MY CLOTHES BAGS everything NEVER GOT TO WEAR ANY OF THEM because of this  I loved dressing up n going our my name ITSELF is Zara it happened to be that and I was exactly like my name fashion meant everything to me n my eyes are burning n my eye muscles are twitching too.


This is maddening u know it’s all madness ppl dying me SUFFERING for more than 10 years now only Aneri lived n laughed. Hysterically I’m sure. Because c’mon.


The images still kll me, I can’t ever even imagine you being in love with me Harsh, moreover you are OBSESSED with her I saw that vacation pic the one in the maroon shirt n the way u were making those expressions U KNEW I WAS NOT ABLE TO BREATHE HERE I WAS GETTING  TORTURED N U WENT TO HOTELS WITH HER FOR I GET IT… you  knew all the signs and markings Aditya WAS STILL ALIVE SO WAS MATTHEW SO WAS I but u were busy fkin her and making love giving love bites while I was like I said hiding my scars making fun of my virginity? As if I was never a girl and she was a goddess! U were SO DAMN OBSESSED with her that I can’t get that out of my mind I’m somehow breathing rn my heart is running out of breathe yrs qui quivering my lungs wud collapse any moment my heart is just gasping for breath now


I cant stop thinking how much u were into her even after all the repeated cheating you were toxically into her u wear her ring like a girl she doesn’t that ring klld Aditya any girl wud want a guy like this! It said at several places that SHE UNRIGHTFULLY snatched u… from me it said that. Look at the furniture which is lying unassembled and my dream bed all on a mighty disc. All my stuff my life’s first lehenga a red one all my things my coffee counter NEVER MADE IT the stuff lying like that IT CAME TRUE IT HAD SAID THAT SHE/the Devil will not only snatch the love of my life that too unrightfully but ALL THE FORTHCOMING things too. I don’t mind giving her ALL OF THAT for you. Contd


You were so mad about her I had NO IDEA I just can’t stop crying Idk why I have no other option than dy-ng u were there on dating apps for years even in 2018 only those ppl even actors who are going through breakups or separations/divorce come there, they’d admonished a Bolly celeb too even though he was breaking up, n here… the Rajasthan shaadi was also HIDDEN what nonsense? All for attention Aneri has gives all these DECEPTIVE SADISTIC HEARTBREAKING “ideas” for attention why did u entertain this typical cheap wannabe kinda girl/Attention seeker there are several like her, her pic cheek to cheek with that man Kunal with whom she was cheating or whatever having an open relationship, tells me she’s exactly what I thought, an average local - herd mentality waali cheap woman, like every other girl who’s

sl-tty, moreover she’s NOT even that seductive type a typical wannabe there’s no other word, I mean those who do all this for like I said attention n then that SHALLOW type of drama… for her lame retorts. I don’t want to compete with her, she’s NOT my competition nowhere near me, girls nowadays even those who are not of my caliber are STILL MORE EVOLVED than her… she’s way below them also SORRY I’ve not grown up with such cheap ppl in Mumbai we don’t have this “type” hence I was shocked to see someone like u with this ‘troubled girl.’


But I can’t imagine u ever liking me im ice cold I have to die can’t type sorry I have lost all hope for afterlife too (if there is one) even in heaven now cuz I’ll ask u to be with her cuz u are too obsessed I’ve used that word several times but ur pics are soo devastating/baleful for me 🤦🏻‍♀️ they show how crazy u are about her I’m done.  I cant live with this or even myself after being left TO DIE RUTHLESSLY by someone like u whom I couldn’t imagine losing at any cost, the person WHO MEANT THE MOST TO ME in this whole universe like the poem I’d written on Threads find it the person against whom even the entire universe wouldn’t matter that person imsemtuvejg indenture insensitively cant type all typos can’t stop crying I’m almost dead that person insenrucly insensitively left me to die FOR HER… I want my soul to never go to heaven I want to diminish it entirely I want to erase it forever in he-ll bu-rn there CUZ IT HAS NO REASON OR RIGHT to stay if it’s getting rejected that too u asked me out u urself said lots of kisses etc. u were mesmerised at the bar while she was sitting with that average personality knowing very well that she doesn’t even have to dress up for you cuz she had that level entitlement given by you. Being left to die as a virgin otherwise ppl wud say I dated u NO being left to die a horrible death like this after 10+ years of perseverance and patience and enduring all the beatings in this critical condition it wud pain so much that I wud throw up, after all this being left to die for someone of her category, UNDESERVINGLY & UNRIGHTFULLY LIKE IT SAID AT MORE THAN ONE PLACE, as if our lives even those who died had no value our dreams our unfulfilled wishes my soul has no reason or right to stay it has to diminish forever after someone like u did this cuz u MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME


all the muscles in my body are shaking n jrk-ng a lot cuz I’ve cried too much can’t sit or lie still my hands are numb relying on auto correct rn they’re lifeless im


getting invu involuntary twitches n jrk-s (slang I meant the scientific term or else it’ll be detected) l im getting toi many of them too many of them cuz I’ve cried a lot I’m numb my head is numb



I’m feeling like throwing up too n my chest muscles are also shaking n jrk-n it’s quivering again but I won’t make it this time I’ve cried enough in this set are state I’m too numb n lifeless I’m getting wheezing n breathlessness too - Zara Sauleh



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