That was me in the pics.
Some more signs + a scene and more important things before I die
Before Aditya Singh Rajput died I not only had an intuition, it was also this… and then she says I’m not “special” why? Are you jealous?
I was already writing about the someone turning our numbers around before killing us and i was writing how or why he wud and then Aditya’s death and the upturned numbers ONLY PROVED it.
I never wanted him to be one of the characters in the book now my own numbers have been turned too cuz I’m his no. 1 target in fact it was done for me and HARSH EXECUTED that plan with that manhoos woman and her ring. I’ve been writing about it they sit and gaslight so much ppl are dying because of them they think its funny? Forget love I’m not some hrn-y lusty rapst like you who’ll steal another’s soulmate it’s SERIOUS how can he just sit like that?
That woman is encouraging cuz all she wants to do is win him like a trophy and fk him up at night! He’s been real fked lately keep taking advantage of him and us.
Swipe You are unrightfully illegally doing acc to the law of the universe.
Opportunistic pervy shameless woman. I never even asked him out psycho fan hai tu koi?
I was hitting myself a lot very badly in fibro it feels like the skin is peel-ing even when it’s not and it pains that much and even in that I kept hitting myself a lot until my skin burnt and became red and my eyes and head and ears started getting impressions from my fingers.
I was hitting my head face - mainly and my eyes and eyes which barely see now he’s made me cry so much since 10 years
How much has he insulted me in front of everyone I even said platonic! I AM VERY INTERESTING I HAVE A LOT OF INTERESTING THINGS TO TALK ABOUT TOO WHICH WILL KEEP U (anyone) entertained for hours but the other person has to match my caliber to fathom it!
And instead of accepting this fact I was told he isn’t interested kya yaar?
He doesn’t want interesting ppl to be interested he wants rich or cheap women… like the saying “hawties” and all what else? You saw my pics na? I was fair and pretty like his superficial mind wanted otherwise it doesn’t pain men it pains us if we aren’t attracted or aroused, what else?
Bharwa toh nahi tha! Girls cant look their best all the time due to what they have to GO THROUGH and them pms ovulation it takes 20 days of the month for so many of us.
As for men their quality shows on their exterior, and it even pains girls I’ve read even I’m a virgin I know science I’m not always hrn-y like some females so it’s all Demi sexuality for me, my mother says it’s a “need” like all these men
NOOO I don’t work that way, unless I like you (love literally to that level) I wont feel the need for it but he MANIPULATED me by showing that I’m unacceptable which forced me to fight back.
I kept slapping my face and eyes and ears all so badly until they turned red and hot and even got those impressions/marks they kept burning and I was crying and all I could say was “I didn’t choose my looks and ruin them you’ve seen my picks HE MADE ME LIKE THIS” and now I’m being forced
to either get rapd by some ugly creeepy DUMB man who’ll be average even mentally I am not my style of talking and body language isn’t something you’ll see in common ppl here in India you don’t even know me! You are missing out on everything… anyone who could’ve appreciated is.
I don’t deserve an average uncouth. He won’t be able to keep up they can’t fathom what you see saying cuz they aren’t even smart MEN ARE are average inside out they don’t go through the same things as us so their looks don’t change be it due to some guy and his torture or other things (which we have) their quality shows on their faces I can’t sleep with someone like that
She is thinking of his interest, what about mine? My rap-e wud be painful, I’d even said I won’t lose my virginity ever I am okay with something platonic if they have so much problem with me, girls like us WE DESERVE a chance but I’m okay with that also he just has to be of MY Choice he has to walk shoulder to shoulder, you don’t know my personality type you’ve seen nothing
I can’t bear this drama. I wanted someone from my gen or modern times not these young uncles they are of the same age but so dumbbbb they scoff and they can burp in 10 diff styles. They’ll produce all sorts of sounds from their vocal chords, they keep scoffing and all while talking and they in the shirt with a metal bracket wala belt yucks yaar they can’t even pick a proper haircut just 1 cm strands that too they’ll come with oiled hair in their own marriage all champus how dare they touch me?
They are looking for a Sx companion I’m not their subservient I was that type who always wanted a bf and then a husband a love marriage obviously!!! Yaaaaaarrrrr cheeee I’m my ur toy wives are objectified in India
I’m not born to serve u ur in bed. They don’t even deserve me they are not of the same level, the boys I would see out in the same places I wud go they were such but they don’t want to marry in India and when they do they act like Harsh I don’t know why or what he’s got SUPERFICIALLY thanks to his shallow mind OUR MARRIAGE SIGNS HAVE BEEN COMING UP SINCE 2016 he should’ve married me but he tarnished my image
And showed everyone that I - a virgin was that rapst my biggest nightmare those creepy pervs ewww he ruined me and now he’s forcing me indirectly to get rapd understand that much.
I had said platonic for him and it doesn’t pain men anyway (it pains girls if they aren’t attracted or aroused) so? My punishment is WORSE here.
I’ve not been eating I’m weak and lanky my heart condition has gotten worse pls read this last post I’ll tell u what happened today
I was already hit and tortured physically due to Harsh Jayesh Rajput several times even after getting fibromyalgia and other neurological issues BECAUSE of him (intense emotional trauma since 2015-16 it can end up in that) Contd.
My mother cannot resist saying this, whatever she said yesterday still haunts me and if that wasn’t bad enough today she did what she’s been trying to do since 3-4 days Contd.
Ever since 5th Mar (u know what had happened right before that, I had a bear death exp I COLLAPSED and I was shuddering while my body was trying to keep itself alive it was struggling to do that abd i couldn’t breathe it was all due to this swipe
- A LONELY NEW YEAR (since the past 10 years since I met him since the age of 18 it’s been like that) followed by his birthday 5th Jan, the “Valentine’s day” (again that woman will point out to how I’ve written it swipe
Aneri’s memory in that red cardigan while he was high as hell at Tarun’s house he was still loitering on dating apps after that, I learnt about her existence that day otherwise I didn’t know him or his shows or whatever, they think she’s someone great, she’s just tacky and she has no class I was literally killed due to her, she was flirting and cracking chichore jokes with JIMMIT kya yaar swipe
Then this… my birthday lonely as ever not s single person wud wish me and I wud instead get death curses (cancer and all) from my mother and all those pervs whom I was rejecting for sleeping, THEY WERE GIVING ME EXACT same curses stop judging me by her to vindicate urself you can’t see my caliber? What are ur eyes for? Showing off? As if they are the only pair in the world, I’ve spoken to Indian models with blue eyes too c’mon I have their SS as well I’d taken them for you swipe
I collapsed and started shuddering cuz I couldn’t take that stress anymore and my body was losing life that day I was not able to breath I was shaking uncontrollably dead to toe it was like a stroke swipe
I was insensitively left to die... by him just because he was SHALLOW and SUPERFICIAL, I was PRETTY if he wanted that swipe
I would get dragged throughout the floor and thrown across the room, the pressure points in the most delicate part between my head and neck were crushed with fists and knuckles, swipe
my hand has been pulled several times in such a manner that it would've ripped out of my body and the nerves at my wrist of the left hand have been pressed so bad that I could've easily developed carpet tunnel syndrome or even died, in fact I was told
"your nerves should stop now and you should die” swipe
I have faced all this ever since I was a kid, the moment I see even the slightest reflection (after he has ruined me my health skin everything) I cry and scream and get scared I tell myself THEY WILL KILL ME cuz they hate me so much I can’t look like this I’ve got to be perfect and flawlessly White FAIR IS NOT ENOUGH he will not budge until I’ll look like that and i have no one else my mother wud kill me here swipe
He is insensitively leaving me to die due to this, my whole head shakes and so does my vision due to his “pressure” my mother said I’m glad you don’t look in the mirror and criticised me a lot she kept wincing and saying such horrible things which ruined my confidence even more swipe
She knows it’s because of HIM yet she worships him, his OCD got me in this state by 21-22 itself and he Never fixed it. Swipe
Today she said what she’s been trying to say since the past 3-5 days… she was already saying and since years I’ve seen her biting her lips and controlling herself but blurting out certain humiliating things today she did it - in full fledge swipe
Some sign RIGHTLY blamed that narcissistic Harsh for this. When he was giving an interview I was suggested that paper clipping cuz he was in my list back then they asked him about some movie swipe
regarding racial discrimination which he had done and all he had to say was, “I was playing the handsome husband there 🙋🏻♂️” that’s all he wanted to convey… I came up with several explanations to justify his mental health after that. Cuz a grown up man talking like this…?!!! Swipe had to add he had big pores and double chin back then yet I loved him and
THIS WAS ME
One more:
She couldn’t resist humiliating me and she’s been doing it since the past 3 days she said a lot of awful stuff and she has repeated these two things more than
15-20 x times each
- HIS PARENTS REJECTED YOU on 5th Mar and he was not interested in you since long (he himself sent kiss emojis and religiously like 9-10 pics on some dating app they had that feature,. I have all the Ss he asked and nagged for my bb pin and asked if “I was single” then he said “ping when around” and if I wanted relationships he said he did (He had a breakup so I’m hoping he wasn’t lying)
My condition was already horrible I couldn’t breathe it was paining in my chest I had told her, I am still feeling very claustrophobic I can’t breathe it’s paining cuz it’s adding pressure there
She said several times that he TOLD OUR DRIVER THAT he’s “rejecting” me. And that he’s not interested and he’s with others and he must’ve married them
I kept hitting my face very badly slapping it with more pain than his manly hands could’ve given my eyes ears head (it started feeling like I had a hairband around my head the pressure grew that much) it’s NOT jealousy I was prettier more sophisticated husky voice intelligent stylish talented etc. that those girls why wud I be jealous and not just in attire
Even my body language and enunciation was like that, it has only gotten better with time but he has ruined me in everything else. They wud say I love how u talk ur style ur accent ur husky voice and then those looks I wud get so many compliments
They LIED to those cheap girls and said I was jealous cuz they were not of mine or even Harsh’s level to satisfy their ego
One was calling them “hawties” he wud hang out and dance in garba with such ppl and then get Cosy with that cleavage and all to click selfies, I never stuck my body to any man like that.
I’m NOT here to fight or argue or write about him and she’s NOT there to sleep in my place after taking advantage of this! I’m not gay like him. I’m here to FIGHT for my rights and to clarify not get dirty like her in bed what a lusty perv woman he’s got we had our marriage signs since 2016 Swipe
She’s the rapst I AM NOT I am still a virgin and i was now planning to change my gender after hearing those words… cuz that rejection or non interest she’s talking about (my mother) he is Contd.
Dumping me in the same place as those who were my biggest nightmare I was molested when I was only 3 years old those ewww cringy creepy perverts they get blocked I never even said anything he was indignant even after 6 months cuz his mad brain was stuck at that bb pin which I had given the same night and I even told him about that confusion
What has told everyone and are they equally mad? Get over it it’s been 10 years!!! BBM all is dead. Are you crazy? I was chatting in a friendly manner everyone else was also normal EXCEPT for him it’s just that they didn’t want commitment but now he or that woman will lie about me
He knew I was chatting in a good friendly manner nothing happened no argument I even told him and laughed at whatever the “confusion” was there he just kept LYING and making things up cuz his brain wanted to resurface that OCD
At every minor skirmish he starts with that OCD illness where he uses and prefers you also to use fake accounts but the real ID will get blocked cuz he has put a CROSS there! And my mother thinks this mental illness is rejection?
He then keeps ppl on probation mode and avoids blocking then eventually blocks if you ask why…
He had said he loved crime or mafia movies NO WONDER
He thinks he’s some big brawny mafia guy then all I cud tell from that funeral video was he’s like Chota Chetan.
I was hitting myself a lot very badly in fibro it feels like the skin is peel-ing even when it’s not and it pains that much. Thanks to the 5th Mar my mother kept talking about Some song came up during this phase - another sign the lyrics said “Dur se kitni aayi hi aayi hu tu jaane na pyaar ka TOFA laayi Hu tu maane na, aalllllaa llaaaa laaaa laaa itni bedardi se kyu thukaraaye tu maane na” it was actually
She will say I’m singing for him wth btc keep ur corny tacky mentality to urself you’ll sing for men and even dance I’m not like you read it’s fking SERIOUS
Gaao waao se koi “lugaai” laya haï kya cheap mentality hai uski. Singing? Bro what the… anyway I can’t reveal why I came across that song, I’m planning to die otherwise I would’ve happily shared it… I DONT WANT HER to read it’s sacred all my posts you filthy manhoos woman you killed Aditya get lost from our lives! Swipe I’ll share what it was if possible
Here’s the scene I’m writing in tears rn - 🙌🏻 imagine those… (I’d mentioned this earlier in the profiles) Lacey curtains all as white as her crockery, and the moon shining outside, well in this scene it’s still dusk time so it’s all gloomy the moon isn’t out yet, those diaphanous curtains keep furling and unfurling… and the table is set with well, somewhat like meal but...
mostly the kind you have where either you are yet to restock or you aren’t really even cooking cuz you don’t eat anymore as though it’s not an “everyday thing” the table has a fancy white table cloth and the plates have two slices of bread and some fruits which are randomly cut in an odd manner (from far it looks like a ‘still life’ painting)
There are baked beans too, typical canned food which has already expired, the water glasses are filled with milk and the dainty ones, (old fashioned flutes or coups) we have apple cider, you’ll then see a few candles (in those slim Victorian candlesticks) … Monika enters the scene now...
she lights them up one by one, while humming that song “Aa Jaane Jaa” from Inteqam (which is playing in the background I just love that dramatic music in the main line) she’s wearing a flowy white tiered skirt, a stack of golden slim bangles in one hand and and moon stone in her neck, that’s her Introductory scene all gloomy… the teaser.
I NEVER knew the song had those lyrics (which would end up matching) cuz it’s from those b&w days I didn’t know the verses just the first few lines
I can barely breathe though and I had already told him I wanted to be a director when I was 18 all this isn’t because of or for “him” ITS A CHILDHOOD DREAM I had come up with a story when I was barely 12 years old!!
I wasn’t sayin it for contacts he argued so I said that line and then he said something else.
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