In regards to: True Story www.cashmerecult.com/post/karma & www.lilacnights.com/post/another-psychic-incident and my First Book + all the posts on Facebook.
Won’t die without saying…
He is like Coronavirus It’s impossible to contain him, he evades in a flash, it seems like he doesn’t exist but he is ubiquitous (check out all those coincidences in Stupid Cupid post)
You treat him well, face him fearlessly but that never helps… there is no effective measure or permanent treatment, he is so damn insensitive and ruthless, he ain’t going nowhere.
In fact He is the reason why I stopped dressing up and going out, I felt like wearing a mask to hide my face, literally imagined myself doing that long before this pandemic started, I had stopped going for haircuts, movies shopping etc. in 2017 itself I ended up buying loungewear… and then everyone did that, cuz He, that man himself is an epidemic… he is Kov-id, people are getting hospitalised and running out of breath for no good reason, we are hiding our faces behind a mask cuz we are all too “ugly” for HIM
And just like Kov, he is a big head honcho who decides everything right from our “time” to the “opening hours” & deadlines, he calls all the shots when none of us can for where would we? All bars are empty…
He has different variants and each time you see one of them, you are like, Who The Fuck is She now?
He just keeps going on & on and on and he has wasted so much time that it’s impossible to imagine your life without him
HE made me chronically ill (fibromyalgia) with a phantom illness, which can neither be seen that easily nor get detected, which comes with a plethora of symptoms right from neurological disorders to extreme pain, draining weakness and unbearable suffering…
He is constantly in the news, across all different media outlets wrecking some or the other havoc but the actual source of his origin/the real cause of his “insolent disdainful behaviour” is still unknown.
We are simply blaming Bill, leave that old man alone, it was never Event 201, it was always 501
(I’ve been calling him that since 2018 that alias is based on his birthdate which is 5th Jan)
I’m sorry if you felt bad but you took away my normal life, my youth, my happiness and hope… and I wish I could’ve seen you on your knees at my fucking doorstep begging and apologising for all the humiliation, misconduct, gaslighting, deception, torture, etc. etc. my heart still quivers and breaks and I get alarmed with all kinds of sensations even at the slightest of noise, you just don’t let me heal…
Some guy on a self help app was like”You don’t sound unloveable to me at all” - he was a foreigner we don’t have such men here, another one said “I wish he could see how much you loved him, one day he will but by then it would be too late and you’ll be in someone else’s arms” a Negro (don’t like calling them Black although it’s a beautiful colour) came and added (a reply to his comment) “Amen, bro amen to that.” ALL RELEVANT ATTACHMENTS ARE HERE: www.instagram.com/lilacnights1997
My heart has become very weak due to his blocking all the juggernaut impact, I have a chronic illness now & neurological disorders, my convulsions wheezing palpitations have all increased, my eyesight has become poor due to constant crying, the nerves n muscles in my head, eye chest all vibrate shake twitch pain sting convulsate, jerk my blood pressure is perpetually low & I quiver even at the slightest noise, I can’t stop crying, remembering “them” and all those women tears my heart.
There is no one I can talk to, there was never anyone to talk me out of it.
https://www.lilacnights.com/post/destiny As an empath & author, it was my job to help people, remotely at the comfort of their homes, whoever needed an ‘understanding friend’, I never had any friends so I knw how it feels, before dying I just wanna say if even if you have a little bit of Hope left, then stay around, don’t leave like me & if u ever feel like asking God why He’s been keeping u alive or is it that he wants to see you suffer more? Then His answer would be, “No I want you to see them suffer…”
Everyone in my house caught a flu, high fever, cold cough due to this mercurial climate, they are fine alhamdullilah but I didn’t catch it *touchwood* inspite of all the crying (I’ve been crying continuously since the past 5 days) pain, depression, my chronic illness, other ailments, wisdom teeth etc. There has to be some reason, I’ve been in contact with them but I didn’t even catch any cold, I’ve been coming across the phrase “Don’t give up” continuously I’ve been seeing it everywhere since the past 2 years, the other day I was thinking about the Angel of Health & the next morning I saw his name on insta, someone who shared the same name was suggested to me… I hadn’t voiced it or written it anywhere, when I was choking during one of those panic attacks, I was again saved, my hands were numb and lifeless till 12 am but I survived and after a few days I accidentally came across an article which had the SAME DATE and that Angel’s Name Highlighted (it was a random article discussing something else) but it had a line saying “He Saved the day” I’ve been seeing his name over and over again since the past 2 years ever since this pandemic has started, he is the Angel of healing and medicine but look how ppl are busy trying to challenge God, He will deploy his Best team and yet these ppl will try to shoot ‘em down, break my will… kill me with their indifferent callous insensitive behaviour and God is like “Being silent will never make you ME Let’s see têre halak mein se awaaz finally nikalti kaise Nahi hai, saare celebs ki vaat lagaunga bohot ho gaya Human worship, you’ll will fall flat on your faces from that pedestal! You are no one to treat people like underlings or unworthy of an answer, speech communication… an “untouchable” being a celeb doesn’t make you great!”
You know these 2 years have been awful for “Celebs”
I was thinking about that 5th March incident & crying on the inside when I came across this (look at the underlined words) HE WILL BUDGE, I WILL HOLD MY GROUND He will be the one who will have to leave his “takht” and come
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