This is what happened today, I was obviously crying again cuz it hurts a lot when no one gives a damn about you, nothing matters to anyone, nothing ever changes… time doesn’t stop and your life remains stalled, you just keep getting older and uglier and your already slim chances keep getting narrower, I won’t be able to live with this & God will punish people more (Ref. 5-6th tweet on twitter as well as the pics below) Magic happens… I had recently created an account on Vero app cuz Insta doesn’t let you upload gifs & they get posted in the form of videos, I don’t like seeing the “view counter” cuz it makes me realise I’m being coldly ignored, I hate being a loner, I’ve celebrated every birthday alone and I don’t deserve this, I’m very gregarious and social and interesting and this is all sheer prejudice. It reminds me of the fact that no one’s looking at my account or content and I’ve not created a biz ID, I’m not planning to monetise, it’s just my personal space (insta: thesecret_attic) but I want people to like it, it’s very hurtful, I’d rather be dead, anyway their loss, if people are not ready to budge, me and God won’t either. Lending a hand is not difficult, ugly people are already sad there’s no need to make them more ugly or sad, you can help them fix their life especially if they are unwell (anyone who is chronically ill will not look good unless they’re aided and I’m not talking about depression) Coming back to the story, I decided to shift to Vero cuz it had animated posts & THERE IS NO “OFFENDING VIEW COUNTER” to tell you how hated, alienated or lonely you are but I ended up deleting the app cuz it didn’t feel that boisterous, after a few days some Russian tried hacking my Insta acc which was created using the same email address that I’d used for Vero (which I had joined later) I had my insta link mentioned on Vero in my bio but I’d already changed the username cuz I thought it was too vintage, so they used my mail ID from which I had registered Vero & Insta’s accounts, anyway when the location said it was Russia I thought it was the Russian painter, I’d uploaded a few paintings there, I then changed my password cuz Instagram prompted me to do that and when I was keeping a new one, out of nowhere something struck me, I was like why am I thinking of this? 🧿 I kept that “thing” at the end of my passcode and today I remembered that the painter is obviously dead, I was so sad I couldn’t think clearly, the paintings are old, and VERO IS DEVELOPED BY A TEAM OF RUSSIAN HACKERS… so it had to be one of them, now I’ll tell you another secret, when I was keeping the password, the thing that occurred to me out of nowhere (I’ve had many such instances before and I’ve shared them in lilacnights.com/post/stupid-cupid) like I was saying while keeping the new password, an extension suddenly crossed my mind and I kept that, it was Vero’s ext. hahaha and yet it didn’t strike me at that point that they could be behind it. “2.0” Vero had just launched Vero 2.0 and it was everywhere in the ads even in their videos Vero “2.0” it’s like a voice asked me it has to be 2.0 at the end, well I’ve changed it again now.
I was told (even after getting diagnosed with a crippling illness) that I don’t have any friends and I’ll die like this is bed, I was mocked by someone close ‘cuz I couldn’t go out (both, due to the illness and lack of friends) apart from that, my so called “best friend” was extremely jealous of me, I was smart, talented, an épicurean I loved eating out, trying different cuisines… she took away all my friends from me and ruined my social life, after that she started sharing restaurant/mall images with them and they went on to bully me on internet by saying offending things, about me being a loner, they were tagging me with horrible labels which I can’t even share here and they would surface all their pics just to make me feel bad, when I would lie about going out, they would scoop out all the details from their friends who stayed in my building and bully me again… then that guy 501 came into picture and then we had this Pandemic/Karma NOW WHERE ARE YOUR RESTAURANT PICS NAZIA? USAMA? “SUMIE” SUMAIYA?
God is my only friend. He is fair.
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