Dear, HARSH JAYESH RAJPUT
This was me when I met him before he ruined me, if you won’t stop (he has my personal number) one day ppl will BURN ur “professional” photos and effigies when they’ll come know what you’ve done you are taking advantage cuz I’m all alone here… contd. reading below the pic
Aditya happened to be in chapter 22 (the book was based on real life) coincidentally he had even died on 22nd May and it’s 1:03 in the clock I had told u it was the devil that’s his unlucky number even Diana had crashed into the 13th pillar swipe
cuz she was afraid of Car Accidents his cars in the tarot deck is also 13, I was afraid of seeing a ring on Harsh’s finger since 2016 inspite of OUR marriage signs, I wasn’t ready to stalk him I wanted to stay oblivious to all of his afraid cuz he was deliberately trying to make me jealous so I had stopped stalking him in 2016 February but the Devil killed Aditya and guess what? Swipe
Even though I didn’t stalk Harsh the funeral video was trending on Twitter and there were a lot of speculations around his death so I saw it to gather “clues” and HARSH’S RING or hand primping that moustache was the first thing they showed! Swipe
23rd May one of our marriage numbers he showed me the ring EXACTLY on that date when I shared my life’s first red lehenga… it was the first one in the past 10 years which I’d lost. Swipe
I will always love you, everyone was very lucky whoever you didn’t hate or all those were with you. Swipe
there are a few more things I have to write here - It started off as mutual, he was showing a lot of interest and he was asking for my bb pin. He was also sending me kiss emojis and asking if I was single and liking my pics (24 hr selfies they had that feature back then) on some dating app that WHOLE YEAR then he came in April again the next year… swipe
I have all the screenshots (signs as well as chat transcripts and likes too) pls read ahead… I can’t type my heart rate is rapidly going up cuz I don’t keep well I had to remove the wisdom tooth which is giving me constant infections I’m too ill, there’s no one for me. I have to finish this post Swipe
As you read it started off as mutual and then he turned it into a one sided love story, pls read this it’s killin-g me I didn’t even have to do anything to die I can’t sit up straight and it’s impossible for me to eat or drink anything I’m dy-ing my body has broken down limb to limb my muscles shudder jerk and fasciculate inside swipe
PLS I CHALLENGE HIM OR ANYONE TO COME AND SEE at least have some shame instead of asking if it’s true come here and see! DM me I’ll send my address (if you are known) Swipe
ABOUT THE EMOJIS:
The kiss emojis that I use have a “heart” the ones he sent me on BBM was a smooch it had a lipstick 🤭 so don’t say anything about mine, there are 2 emojis here - one with a heart 😘 one without a heart 😚 (that woman doesn’t have to be happy she has no right over him WE HAD MARRIAGE SIGNS she’s just an opportunistic sltt) Anyway the emoji swipe
with the heart means “sending love” it’s a blow kiss, and the one without the heart is a regular kiss, so every time I say k love you or miss you I add that emoji which is blowing a kiss… it means sending love through that heart, the normal one isn’t that special the one without the heart is just a kiss, it doesn’t necessarily have love, the one he gave them while I was/am dy-ing with the lip virgin/virgin tag. Swipe
RAPE:
I was NOT raped but I was this close to that! As for lubricators I have read other people's experiences and I know science more than you! I was a good student
It started as mutual he turned it into one sided itaraane I’ve had several incidents where I’ve even escaped gang rap-e I had shared them before they were after me with a truck I was trying to leave the house due to constant abuse and I was a KID I was 12 and the next time I was 14. That’s why I hate this coun-try and it’s MEN. Swipe
I’m not being misandrist I had another incident when I was barely 3 Junior KG, a toddler and it was the worst… I saw something on TV and I realised it was something very horrible so I got scared and I told my mother. Swipe
She had dumped me into some rickshaw with other kids instead of a school bus that too when I was in KG and when she had to pick me up she wud come 2 hours late… and I wud cry and cry at school all the teachers wud leave and switch off the fans and lights too even the peon would shut the main gates and I wud keep waiting I HAVE HIGH fever rn sorry for all the typos swipe
then I decided I wud go and sleep or stay in one of the classrooms even without electricity. I was only 3 years old (early admission) Till today she tells me derisively and very (cruelly) why wud you cry? Swipe
You horrible girl the whole school would hear u crying, she just exaggerates I WUD sniffle and cry silently even if I wud and the teachers in fact would not even know I WAS THERE if they wud find me sitting outside they wud ask, “Your mummy didn’t come?” My mother still recalls those days with a lot of hate. Swipe
Like I said I’m too sick I can’t breath due to that infection, moreover this… like I said I had my first incident when I was 3 with some “DISGUSTING UNCLE/CREEP” and even we grow up all this gets worse from our pre-teens, I was 12 and 14 when I escaped 2 gang rap-es, one even included a truck. Swipe
When we grow up we are expected to either get preyed upon in the streets or in the house under the name of marriage imagine being asked or left with the option to marry one of these creepy fks? Swipe
Moreover he showed I’m them by blocking me and turning this mutual love story into a one sided one, it’s my worst nightmare how dare he? He showed me that I was of their level and I deserved to get married and rapd by them… they are ALL THAT unless a man is somewhat stylish and good looking his quality can be easily detected from his ugliness
When we aren’t interested or ATTRACTED we aren’t aroused or lubricated and forget that girls say even lubricators don’t work cuz the bud doesn’t open for them unless there’s raging hormone activity and even during PMS it’s barely the size of blood droplets so why boast of ur tool or it’s size when you don’t have the face for it? Swipe
1% is all I had asked, which DIDNOT include a fair complexion or height or money or a very brawny muscular body, I had seen his double chin and fat hands also before it was okay and he was looking dark also his jaw was looking mandibular he wasn’t looking that attractive (2012-15 pics) after that I never saw him again BUT yeah somewhat style and cuteness has to be there not necessarily handsome in full sense but that 1% should be there what the hell is this? Swipe
The pain wud kill me and I’ll feel exploited ill burn my body/skin if they’ll come with their ewww parts which they use to extricate do u realise it’s THAT SERIOUS? Cheee when I don’t like why wud I let someone get into that zone? SwipeOnly love makes it acceptable otherwise we don’t even feel the urge to want anything like that.
My head is so tender from inside can’t bear any sounds pls help me I’m dy-ing he has made me feel like I’m one of those who did all that ever since I was a kid a disgusting ugly pervy “uncle” that’s it I even thought of losing my virginity to one of them and getting myself rapd and then dy-ing he himself came to me FOR THIS? And all those signs? Even our marriage or family signs he turned it all into a joke! Swipe
Last but not the least, I came up with a “half open marriage” because of him, where my husband wud be with whoever he wants and swipe
I’ll be in a platonic relationship with him I don’t want to be with anyone I just wanted to delete him from my mind by doing hypnotherapy (whenever I thought I can’t write im feeling faint) I’m seeing blurry wheneve I thought about this half open marriage and said it in my HEAD this same quote came up (that too on multiple occasions) “You are too full of life to be half loved” but swipe
I don’t want to be that disgusting uncle just cuz he has ruined me and made me like that (girls can’t look their best all the time due to a comparatively slower metabolism, PMS and ovulation anyway this applies to EVERYONE it gives u breakouts, bloated fingers legs and face, brittle hair, broken skin dullness, redness, hot flashes, etc. + HE HAS GIVEN ME SEVERAL NEUROLOGICAL DISORDERS and he never even fixed them I could’ve been saved! Swipe
Hence you can’t compare girls and men acc to their looks, average men have their average (dumb) brains and quality written all over their faces cuz they DONT HAVE other reasons to look like that they are made that way and one can easily make out how they’ll turn out to be… sophistication or intellectual mind speaks for itself whereas girls can look like that but they can be diff from inside. So we deserve chappis and creeps and roadside Romeos huh? Cuz that’s what’s happening. Swipe
All educated men are choosing rich girls or bloggers and famous internet celebrities all of them… so many people from my childhood days got married to such men (the ones I’ve described on top) all educated smart girls, I can’t and I won’t. I’m not them I was smarter and I had more potential I wasn’t even mean or conniving like them (that’s why I don’t even have friends) then why do I deserve that? Swipe
Final thing— yet he made me feel like my biggest nightmare all those Eww disgusting creepy uncles who make you nauseated so I don’t want to intimidate anyone (even unintentionally) I don’t message ppl (remove that also from the back end team) as a girl for us, all this is worse than death so I don’t want anyone to feel that way even if you are a guy, swipe
I never wanted to scare anyone, he dumped me into that same category cuz he’s never been actually mol-es-td or been in a situation like that for him it’s easy to trivialise it and demean someone to THAT EXTENT. Swipe
Love was my only hope after spending years outside the house on the stairs starving and crying and getting abused here (mentally and physically both) it was the MOST important aspect of my life and I knew it can’t be just any random chappi or creep from my building! I’m NOT those girls I can’t tolerate this. Cheeee I can’t even think of that. Swipe
No personality nothing! They don’t match my caliber they won’t be able to speak on the same level or even have that 1% I was talking about! So what’s the point? Just loads of assault yeah? Its exploitation… swipe
my body has already broken down as a “punishment” by him and now this? A woman’s body is for all this CRAP gutter ke mu lagu? Eww that’s wud be my first kiss… kiss se yaad aaya listen to this also swipe
I had seen his pale lips due to sutta and smoking when I was suggested his ID in some other app, then I saw his lips turning dark in that funeral video (girls have low haemoglobin count due to menstruation so they can have pale lips) but his are pale due to his own mistakes all that chai sutta or beer sutta whatever I STILL thought swipe
if I would’ve looked exactly like how he wanted although this was me… when I met him
YET if I would’ve looked exactly like how he wanted however he wanted to morph my face into those generic features of his friend or whatever, I would’ve still shared my first kiss with him INSPITE of his lips, you can’t even wear lipstick like us, we have a reason again I’ve written that your’s is ur own fault. Swipe
I wouldn’t have made him feel bad about himself or conscious even for a minute, and I would’ve loved him even more specifically because of that ❤️ a lot more. Swipe
I’m afraid I’m getting old now and no one will choose me for any platonic relationship either I lost all 10 years of my life due to him and even though I’d tried “moving on” in the first year itself you know what had happened right? So don’t blame me, now only one option is left for me and that is death. Swipe
I feel rejected hated I have no one in this world. No future no present either, nothing. No earning no source of livelihood because of him I would’ve Carried my own saved money to begin with until I would’ve been back on my feet BUT FOR THAT U NEED SOMEONE TO LEND THEIR HAND I’m not here to die alone or let him win! Swipe
Even if platonic but since there’s no one I am dy-ing bye I had to share all that and about my book too he should see it. NOW ITS ENOUGH, I’ve had enough of him, his insulting behaviour that woman who came out of nowhere and killed Aditya with her manhoos ring, next it was my turn I had not even loved my life. Swipe
Now bye it’s been too much NO ONE’S telling him anything of putting him behind thr bars how Insensitive and CRUEL at least tell him something give him a warning. This is all defiance he’s BUSY FKING HER SO MUCH he is not even seeing Aditya or my death my blog posts he’s not reading them KYA HAI USME ITNA? For me he was gay I’m an untouchable virgin here and look!
Bye yaar I give up
Zara Sauleh
Book's details and a message for him, I'm not "afraid" to mess with a Beauty Queen like him, it's just something else. There you have more reasons to fk her tonight while I die.
Copy pasted from my notes I don't have stamina to write again, to that woman don't even look here or I'll gauge out one of our eyes
The Vintage China Doll 🎬 🩰
By FrenchPress ☕️
Author: Zara Sauleh
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SPOILERS ‼️‼️‼️ DONOT Read
Even if you do… aah well you deserved it 😒😠 Emojis are like clues here. I haven’t divulged much in fact I’ve been enough careful, but it includes chapter names and synopsis (which were actually written for my own ref.) and if you think the book is all about Harsh or our signs then no I’m not plotting any revenge, it’s pointless, my goal was to find love & a normal/happy life. I have used several puns which can end up becoming some really cool catchphrases, I have also shared my own theories and answered certain questions regarding God or the universe… (and the concept of life after death)
I wanted the book to be interesting and not boring or long winded, as a kid I always wished we had something like this with real life paranormal stuff, I have listed all those incidents and included my dreams too which can be decoded here.
I wanted to have novelty covers for both the volumes, so I decided to make something very quirky and “odd” or ‘strangely old fashioned’, the book or it’s tone is also supposed to be equally gothic & surreal… I have also come up with a very unique size, which existed before I was born ie. in the first half of the 90s.
I always wanted to write a “gothic novel” and today my 12 year old self would’ve been definitely proud because I never imagined I would be taking up something like this… as an adult I can’t say much about how it makes me feel because I’ve become very dejected now, I am not happy anymore. You know my reasons. All my excitement has died down because of them.
First page after the title 👰🏻♀️ - a small opening scene like how they have in the movies 🎞️unexplained just like the ending… let people guess what it’s all about, it’s going to align with the leitmotif anyway #No word count, yet to be written but I’ve jotted it down in rough
Intro Chapter - The Ghost A Road Trip 🍳☕️ 🚏where we’ll be introducing Meera and Danial the two pivotal characters and their friends, it’s raining heavily just like all those thrillers which I loved loved loved watching as a kid/teenager, those were the best years of my life… they later stop at some diner to grab food, however the mystery begins right there in the middle of the road #1630 This scene has the very FIRST twist.
The book 🖋️ officially begins from here from this chapter while Meera’s holding it in her hands… with the Preface #265
Chapter 1 The Universe 🪐 numerologically number 1 anyway represents God or the universe #468
Chapter 2 Opposites 🃏 where we are “coincidentally” talking about two opposites with several real life coincidences/signs #3818
Chapter 3 Ruminative Tales 🎰 It’s just something I’m fond of so I’ve incorporated it into my book, it’s one of my prewritten articles but I have edited it and turned it into something poetic now #722
Chapter 4 Wedding Bells 👰🏻♀️ The girl from the initial opening scene is back with more secrets #612 words
Chapter 5 Akashic Records 📂🗄️#4180
Chapter 6 The Lighthouse 📻 Thematic #1200
Chapter 7 Haunted 💀 (ends cunningly like most other chapters) #5246
Chapter 8 Empty Caskets ⚰️ Prose & Poetry #284
Chapter 9 Chaffing our Victorian Collars 🎩 - Meera’s torment begins 😏 #2405
Chapter 10 Titanic 🚢 ⚓️ Full of mysteries, secrets, unfolds 50% of the story it’s also an amalgamation of prose and poetry and we are Introducing China Dolls at the end #20648
Chapter 11 China Doll 💃🏻 Titular Poem written by the Devil translated by Zara, now we have his entry #180
#1789 Literature & Poems - I N T E R M I S S I O N - 🍿🥤
Chapter 12 The Lakeshore 🪙🪝 Hell breaks loose at Meera’s house, she hides away the book but when she tries to retrieve it, the book disappears… something actually propels her to do that and she also gets a panic attack also, I got a mini panic attack too while writing this chapter, my hands had turned cold like both of them Meera and Danial cuz I got into her character while writing some scene, my heart was pounding but it wasn’t as bad as her’s, she goes to burn the book but it’s nowhere to be found… it’s gone. Now she won’t be able to tell what will happen next in her life. Burning it was a bad idea. #3825
- VOLUME ONE ENDS HERE -
VOLUME II BEGINS
~ S E Q U E L ~
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Magic & Secret Wishes 💫 Introductory Chapter #3192
Chapter Ouija Board 🔦
Chapter 14 Silencer Gun ✉️ More coincidences revolving around Harsh and his friends + Meera and Danial try to get their lives back on track and fulfil their dream project #11018
Chapter 15 Cemetery of Buried Thoughts (Poems) 🪦 #501 the word count is exactly 501 the same alias I had given Harsh in 2018 based on his birthdate
Chapter 16 Compassion (Prose) 🧸 #584
Chapter 17 Lullabies 🧹 #14078 Lots of creepy stories about a pair of real life witches, somewhere amidst all that Meera gets smothered in her sleep like the author (real life incident), Danial shares one of his weird dreams with her 🚬
Chapter 18 Shadow People 🔪 Meera gets smothered again but this time she’s abducted. More creepy stories and real life nightmares + shadowy figures and shape shifters #3491
Chapter 19 The Pocketbook 📺 🚿 Has a climax scene continuation part of Meera’s abduction she now has 24 hrs to find the book after the final warning #2279 words we are almost heading towards the end now or at least that’s what the audience thinks it is 🙌🏻
Chapter 20 Room No. 15 🛎️ Meera’s depressed now after making multiple attempts which have failed miserably. For my ref. Add + that uncanny incident related ur my teacher and more coincidences including Harsh’s mother and even his dad, completely bizarre ones. Fast forwards to Meera again, she dozes off to sleep at the drop of the beat as if she’s been hypnotised Strange Effect (Killing Eve) starts playing leading to the next chapter - based on gothic 90s music Gregorian Hymns #5347
Chapter 21 Gregorian Hymns ⛪️ Explores another dream which I had, Meera is still asleep she wakes up in the second half of the dream, one more climax (batch of spirits) #1613
Chapter 22 Jigsaw 🎛️ 📠 Meera is able to put all the pieces together. This chapter explains how Aditya was stuck in the calibration and how it made him an easy prey for the Devil + a lot more other things which support my theory. Coincidentally although this wasn’t planned Aditya passed away on the 22nd and the chapter no. is also 22. And I’m discussing about that number anyway. Meera is up by now flicking through the pages #3062
Chapter 23 Q****🌙 explains those coincidences, certain philosophers couldn’t fathom it and even scientists were not able to fully establish their theory but you can add your’s along with all the answers so far I’ve written #8726 words
God’s Twist
Concluding part (the ultimate winner)
Meera finds the next page torn and missing
An answer to that as well + a few more lines (secret) shhh…
Alternate ending (unexplained) if people are attentive enough they will understand and probably share it in public threads and forums STRICTLY NO SPOILERS!!!
Cinematic Ending 📽️🎞️ might include an action scene, 'cuz what’s a movie without that?
Bonus Content - Character Profiles #3643 You are yet to meet a few of them, they are very interesting and I had the most fun designing these 2 characters, there are a lot of symbolic elements and tons of oddity too something you’ll love if you are not into all those mainstream genres.
Scene Take Two 🎬 from Room No. 15 #331
By Zara Sauleh
